To my dear friends and family,
I am on a journey, a journey called Life. I believe you too would say that your life is a journey for we are never or should we ever be completely satisfied with exactly where we are at. I pray that on your journey you are learning and growing in your relationship with God. He will help you as you open your heart, being transparent with Him….I know this, because of my experience….Let me share with you something that God is really sharing light to.
If I never have shared it with you my name, Melissa, in Greek means Honeybee. As a joke, I tell myself and others that I am sweet yet with a sting. I think I still carry that idea to this day…hoping the sting will diminish away. Another part of being the “honeybee” is the busyness. Please forgive me first of all for saying or excusing myself off from enjoying your presence with the excuse for being busy. This is my big weakness to this day. I know now where it roots from.
Busyness roots from deep within my very being– searching for self…for my identity here on this earth. A question we ask ourselves – or should someday face is “What is the purpose of my life? What should be the satisfying end goal?” I wonder what you would say. Mine has been in the mix of personal goals such as becoming well-taken care of, being a godly woman of God so people can see. I also sought to someday have a family, to be desirable for my future husband, to love and be loved, to have children (if that is what God so desires), to have a place I can have a home to care and protect. Then I find myself trying to achieve academic goals for my future career. I wanted to aim to get the BA maybe a Master in Elementary Education, to have a Minor in Spanish or at least be considered bilingual. Will there be an end? Will I be ever satisfied? I am not saying having goals is a bad thing, I’m just saying is that what you focus in search for your identity? For I have found my very identity as being synonymous with activity. Wouldn’t you agree? When someone ask tell me about yourself, who are you? Wouldn’t you share what you do? Wouldn’t you identify yourself as a student? An employee of some job? Wouldn’t you label yourself as that? I know the American culture has infected me with the worth of my self is based on my performance of what I do or know how to do? Wouldn’t you agree?
We alls search for something deep within our hearts. We all search to satisfy this deep longing inside of purpose/meaning. For this is such an aching in my heart. Even as Christians, we have found God, but seek more when that “satisfaction” doesn’t seem strong enough. We think we need more Bible studies, more time in prayer. We find ourselves praying for God to “do” this, or for him to help us “do” – a bit on the surface of our skin rather than any deep place within wouldn’t you say? Oh how this is a battle that rages from within me in experiencing life not as a passion, but as burdensome, heavy, and exhausting.
Do you want to know what your purpose is? It really isn’t that difficult, but I bet at least once in your life we have forgotten what it may be. Let’s look to the Word and see if there is any answers to the question about our purpose in life…
_ 1 John 5:11-12 = And this is the testimony: God has given us eternal life, and this life is in his Son. 12 He who has the Son has life; he who does not have the Son of God does not have life.
_ Col 3:3 = For you died, and your life is now hidden with Christ in God.
_ John 17:3 = Now this is eternal life : that they may know you, the only true God, and Jesus Christ, whom you have sent.
The Answer: “To know God and enjoy knowing him forever”
Do you want to know God? Or KNOW God?
BAD NEWS: Let me stop here for I have already written a page – If you desire to read of KNOWING God, let me know…if not check out the book that has been the light for my blind eyes The Sacred Romance by Brent Curtis & John Eldredge.
I do this only because I don’t know where you are at in your desire, in your thirst for God…it really isn’t my concern, but because you are God’s chosen people, one whom he has called to Himself, I care about your heart. I want you to live and do what you were called, purposed to do, “To know God and enjoy Him Forever.”
Thank you for your time,
May God challenges you and teach you more as you journey in this road called Life.
With much love!
Melissa Huerta
